I've learnt that some things are just beyond our control.
The more you try to keep it safe, the more you tend to jinx it.
Sometimes, you just have to let go and leave it up to an external locus of control, a higher power.

Meanwhile,
My unhealthily insane obsession has recently
manifested itself into something that burnt a huge hole in my wallet.
In just one evening,
I spent close to 70bucks on 2 magazines(one with Ryo and th other, with Kenichi)
that I can't even read, & a new CD from NEWS(with only 2 songs and a short dvd.)
And now Alicia is back to square one: B-R-O-K-E.

I seriously think I may have developed some sort of mental disorder,
or something very very close to that.
Okay, here's exactly why:
I just pretended I was Ryo in my other account, on one computer,
and started talking to myself on the other.

After a slightly long conversation with myself, I realized that this is,
under NO circumstances, normal.
So this is how it ended

Ryo says:
Arishia Nishikido
wow~
sounds so right
ALICIA- says:
i love love love love love youuuu (L)
Ryo says:
wtf is this alicia you are going crazy

I even print-screened the damn thing for proof of my new-found-illness.


So yes, hi world, I've gone insane.

Well go get your shovel,
And we'll dig a deep hole.
To bury the castle, bury the castle.

There was once a girl who could neither make someone move nor stand still.
So from now on, how can this girl find happiness?

I-want-go-migrate-to-Japan-NOW.

Screw life and all that it stands for.

Oh, and who wants to go for Lenka with me?
17 December, @ Zirca, 8pm, Approx.1hr 30minutes, 45bucks, free standing.

 

Currently trying not to fall asleep to the monotonous drone of my lecturer.
Oh oh, yesterday was Mr.Nishikido's birthday and I totally forgot! :O
Tanjobi Omedeto my Ryo,
although you're not the least bit aware of my exsistance.

This music video is the sexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
My sexy sexy sexy boyyyyyyyyy~
The makings are in the later part of the video,
he kept dropping his guitar pick, FUCKKKKKING CUTTTTTTTTE!